I so wish I can say that all our paperwork has been submitted. It took sometime to turn in our what we thought was final document, a letter from our CPA regarding Chris' income from his work. There was a lot of preparation on our part. However, once that letter was sent to our case worker, we were both excited that everything had been turned in. Unfortunately, we received an email from her a week later informing us that now we were now just waiting for a letter from New York State regarding criminal background check for me. She also added that it can take anywhere between 30 - 90 days. Ugh!!!! :( In fact, just when we thought we had turned in our "final" form, she has surprised us with one more form two or three times already!
Then last week, our case worker told me that she received a letter from NY which stated that they could not complete the process because I had not provided them with NY address. How could I NOT have written down my NY address when I was trying to get clearance from NY?!?!?!?! I am not sure if I am buying it!!! She just told me to fill out the form again and send it. Then I asked her to fax the form, which never came. She then sent me the link where I could print out the form directly. Once I clicked on the link, wouldn't you know it, there were about 20 different forms and some in Spanish!!! So, I had to email her again and asked for the form number so I would know exactly which form to print. She tried to attach the form but didn't send it in the right format, and so it looked jibberish when I tried to open it. Once she emailed me that correct form number, I figured out a way to open a PDF file instead. Then I printed the form and guess what??? It looked nothing like the previous form I had filled out. In fact, I had never seen or filled out this form before!!!!!!!!!!!!! :o
So, while this was going on, a few days ago, I found a letter in the mail from the State of Pennsylvania! This letter also stated that they could not complete their process because I had not provided ALL of my addresses in the last 25 year!!! Now, can someone tell me why Pennsylvania needs my NJ, NY, MA, and GA address to do my background check??? in PA no less??????? Btw, my case worker did not mention about NOT getting an ok from Pennsylvania. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
So, here we are, two months behind schedule! According to our schedule, by now, the home study report should have been completed and sent to Korea and that we should be waiting for the referral. Unfortunately, the report is still incomplete!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now...............I know that God is in control and all the paperwork will be submitted. And as a friend reminded me last night, we will have THE baby we are supposed to have. However, the human side of me is having a real hard time believing that it will happen! EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just wish it was easier to have a baby!!! Well, this simply means that at this time, I need to have FAITH (being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see!!! Heb. 11:1) And this is one of those cases that require real, genuine, no-nonsense kind of faith because there is so much uncertainty and some incompetency on the part of our case worker. While I am tempted to talk to her supervisor, I am afraid of the repercussion. We will have to complete this process with her one way or another. Can you imagine how awkward our next meeting can be after expressing our concerns to her superior?!?! So instead, we will do our best to continue to trust that God will take care of us and our baby and that He will bring us together in His perfect time. In the meantime, we stay thankful as we are continuously amazed by our friends and family's generosity.
Thank you, Lord, for reminding us in the midst of all the turmoils and testing of our patience, that you do indeed love us and that you have not abandoned us as you remind us through the generous gifts of others!!! :)
